I Surrender
I’ve been a victim of a dream of mine.
I hoped to
change something and I failed.
One
afternoon I found out that CBS dropped CSI:NY. I thought that was unfair
because there was a lot of questions without an answer. So I thought that I
could have been able to answer to them and built a season finale. I tried and now, after I reached 11.466
visits on the blog and 52 reviews on EFP with lots of visits too, I realized that
I failed.
I’m only a
failure! How do I aspect one day to do something?
Having been
such a failure makes me think if get graduated in "communications media
and advertising" is really my destiny ... To this doubt I'll soon find an
end on my own.
What I can
say is that I have learned a new lesson: never trust your dreams because you’re
none and stop thinking that someone will notice you!
Yeah I won’t
dream again! I’ll live my life without doing nothing at all I’ll wake up and I’ll
do exactly what the others want me to do. I’ll adjust to others. I'll be just a
number hoping to become old soon and then to die because I’m only a waste of
space.
That’s how
I feel now: a waste.
I think
I've let everyone down. I’m not sure where I’m going I feel like I got lost!
Lost at 21 years old! Great! What now?!
It’s me
against the world, I’m alone and I have to fight my war. I lost so many battles
that’s why I’m giving up!
I just
decided to stop and to don’t publish another story on this blog.
From this
moment you won’t hear a word by here again.
If you want me to go on with all this, please, give me a feed-back! It is useless to continue without an audience! I need YOUR support!
If you want me to go on with all this, please, give me a feed-back! It is useless to continue without an audience! I need YOUR support!
Thank to
who followed the blog, who supported this adventure.
It’s time
to say goodbye (for the moment).
Alice
