CSI:NY Farewell project for the moment

I Surrender

I’ve been a victim of a dream of mine.

I hoped to change something and I failed.

One afternoon I found out that CBS dropped CSI:NY. I thought that was unfair because there was a lot of questions without an answer. So I thought that I could have been able to answer to them and built a season finale.  I tried and now, after I reached 11.466 visits on the blog and 52 reviews on EFP with lots of visits too, I realized that I failed.

I’m only a failure! How do I aspect one day to do something?

Having been such a failure makes me think if get graduated in "communications media and advertising" is really my destiny ... To this doubt I'll soon find an end on my own.

What I can say is that I have learned a new lesson: never trust your dreams because you’re none and stop thinking that someone will notice you!

Yeah I won’t dream again! I’ll live my life without doing nothing at all I’ll wake up and I’ll do exactly what the others want me to do. I’ll adjust to others. I'll be just a number hoping to become old soon and then to die because I’m only a waste of space.

That’s how I feel now: a waste.

I think I've let everyone down. I’m not sure where I’m going I feel like I got lost! Lost at 21 years old! Great! What now?!

It’s me against the world, I’m alone and I have to fight my war. I lost so many battles that’s why I’m giving up!

I just decided to stop and to don’t publish another story on this blog.

From this moment you won’t hear a word by here again.
If you want me to go on with all this, please, give me a feed-back! It is useless to continue without an audience! I need YOUR support!

Thank to who followed the blog, who supported this adventure.

It’s time to say goodbye (for the moment).

Alice